Part of me is happy - the town we would have ended up in made me feel elderly even just looking at it.
Part of me is terrified - there have been so few jobs on offer anywhere that we are in limbo, just waiting and hoping for a job to come up anywhere.
Part of me is desperate - I miss my family in the UK and now we are thinking we may have to look further afield to New Zealand and Australia it has become a reality that we may never live in the same country again.
I feel homesick, but not sure for which home. I think it is the home in my mind where we are secure, my daughter is in a school for longer than a year and my husband is settled in a job, at last.
That home is not here, as this is temporary. It is not in England, they don't seem to want us.
Where is my home now? And if I don't know that, when will this longing end?
Oh sorry love, this sounds really difficult- I hope you end up in the right place for you :)
ReplyDeleteOh what a shame. I think you're right though - home is probably where you'll feel settled rather than the place you were brought up. (Cor - that's a bit deep for a Tuesday!)
ReplyDeleteThat sounds so hard. I can't imagine how lost you must be feeling right now *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI have my fingers crossed for you that you get some stability in your lives very soon
Thank you so much for the supportive comments. I think I was in a big funk yesterday about it all.
ReplyDeleteFeeling happier today, but worried about the future. Think I need to get out and about and do something fun!
Oh, that's tough, especially with a child. My husband is from Australia and I can tell you it's a beautiful place. Does that help? Take care!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to send hugs.
ReplyDeleteThanks Pinecone and Susie!
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